On Saturday, I watched The Road, the adaption of Cormac McCarthy’s Pulitzer-Prize winning novel about a father and son traversing the ravaged remnants of a dying earth following a world wide cataclysm. What struck me most about this story was the devotion that the father has for his son. Cannibals roam the highways, and he guards his son with a rusting revolver with two shells remaining. As he slowly grows feebler and more ill, one gets the sense that his every breath is not his own, but rather breath exhausted for the sake of his son.
“All I know is the child is my warrant, and if he is not the word of God, then God never spoke.” – The Man
He lives for his son. He scavenges for his son. He keeps his son warm, bathes him when possible, cuts his hair, reads to him, protects him, and kills for him. He tells his son, “I will kill anyone who touches you. Because it’s my job.” It is a stark, harrowing portrait of the depths of love that a man can plumb to provide for those he loves.
And so as I was watching this, and later reflecting on it, I began to understand love a little better. Not just the love a father has for a child, although it certainly reinforced my already strong desire to be a father, but the love that we are called to for one another. I wouldn’t suggest killing for a loved one anytime soon, but I’m starting to truly understand that we do not love fiercely enough.
Fierce: [adj.] 1. Having a savage and violent nature, 2. Extremely severe or violent; terrible, 3. Extremely intense or ardent, 4. Strenuously active or resolute.
I’m coming to believe that love is meant to be such a force that it can scare someone, not out of fear, but out of how powerful it is. I believe this because God demands awe out of us, again, not out of fear, not reverence emerging from a worship-or-die fork in the road, but because he asks us to look and understand just how all-encompassing he is. His love is so overwhelming that its volume demands shock.
Love this fierce is startling because we’ve lost the true value of it, the true weight. Love has become a trite ninety nine cent greeting card, a text message signature, an emoticon. Attempting to quantify real, honest to goodness love with “<3” is like handing someone a glass of water and telling them that this is what a tsunami looks like. It’s implausible; it’s actually ludicrous, yet we have done it so long, so many times each and every day that we have forgotten what it was meant to be.
The fourth definition of “fierce” is interesting, specifically the first two words. “Strenuously active.” Love cannot be considered a static thing. Love is not static. If, in The Road, the father had said to his son, “I love you. Now, I’m going to take a nap. You go out there and rustle us up some good eats,” I’d have to doubt his love just slightly. As a matter of fact, if memory serves the father never actually tells his son that he loves him. Looking past this unfortunate verbal omission, it becomes clear as the movie progresses that these words by themselves would severely pale in the face of the man’s actions. His love is anything BUT static; with his every step, every motion, every breath, he paints an unyielding portrait of just how deeply he does love his son. He is strenuously active.
In one of The Road’s most affecting scenes, the father dispatches of a man who attempts to kidnap his son. The shot barely misses his son on its way to killing the assailant, and leaves the boy momentarily traumatized and his face covered in blood. The father puts his son on his back and runs, staying just barely ahead of the kidnapper’s associates, until he finally reaches safety near a river and takes the time to tenderly clean his son’s face and do his best to comfort him. As the boy sobs out of shock, I began to realize that this is a pure definition of love, at least to me: to be able to defend the one you love by whatever means necessary, and then exhibit nothing but tenderness and compassion for that person after the moment passes. Yes, this is love: to war for the one you love, while delivering nothing but love to the person you fight for.
While writing this, I was suddenly struck by the thought that this is a rather untraditional movie to pull visions of love out of. If you go into Blockbuster and ask the clerk for suggestions on a good love movie, chances are he’ll direct you to the latest ensemble romantic comedy; romcoms are a dime a dozen, and have been for the last decade or so. They’re full of famous faces and tired storylines; the man falls in love with the woman, probably under some wacky circumstances, they fall apart, and then they return to each other in the closing minutes while cheesy music plays in the background. This is what Hollywood wants you to view love as: beautiful faces having crazy adventures and sucking face to John Mayer.
Make no mistake: love is full of ridiculous stories that you will tell for years, and sucking face too. But these movies barely scrape over the tip of the iceberg when it comes to describing love. They do not describe a fierce love. Love could be better described in the images of The Road: a gaunt, dying man wearing shoes with more holes than leather, pushing a shopping cart across gutted roads, carrying his child on his shoulders, giving him the last of what food they have.
Love is fiercer than romcom.
Romcoms are that glass of water. A fierce love develops out of complete selflessness and sacrifice, the ability to breathe like your breaths are not your own. Your breaths are ragged because you war for the one you love. Can you imagine a love so ardent that the whole of your resources are going directly to another, except for the bare minimum required to keep you alive, if only so you can keep giving that person more? It’s hard for us. We don’t give or receive this kind of love anymore.
I would end this with a challenge to love fiercely, but the truth is, I’m not entirely sure how to love like this much of the time. This wasn’t taught to us in school; it wasn’t shown to us in our domesticated, comfortable worlds. You and I were brought into a world where if love existed, it was a safe, tame love. It was filled with coffee and paying bills. I desire more for us, for the whole of us. It’s something we will need to discover on our own. Fierce love is described for us; it’s selfless, slow to anger, protective, and every good thing. How we translate it into our own lives, as a transition from static to active love, is a learning process.
Love is fierce. Love is tender. Love wars. Love makes peace.
Most of all, love never fails.
“Three things will last forever – faith, hope, and love – and the greatest of these is love.” – 1 Corinthians 13:13 (NLT)










Goldfish have this crazy short memory; I think it’s something like fifteen seconds. So, basically, if you’re a goldfish, you could run into the side of the bowl, realize you’re in captivity, freak out for fourteen seconds, and then bump into it again and start the whole process over again. It’d be incredibly frustrating, except you never remembered anything. So, it’s probably pretty awesome being a goldfish.